go on?…
to say anything to avoid that I’m a mess
that im tearing apart at the seams
to avoid that we broke and that I can’t cope
to avoid the pain in me
that I’m drunk again
to avoid that I’m still smoking
that i can’t deal with this feeling
to say that we are just getting by
that I’m still here and I’m crying
that I’m so fucked up that i don’t want anyone
that i feel you’re not ready to love someone
to avoid the things that i still see
and avoid the hate you’ll find in me.