I lay on my back, the smell of red wine still vivid. I cross my arms over my face as I let out the last of my tears. My heavy beating heart, the pulsing in my ears. My phone on my stomach, chat still open. I let out a laugh that only tears could create. … Continue reading Over
39 bodies but I crawled back to you Spring touched my skin and I knew it was true But as we both ate our eggs, I drifted away Suddenly focused on all my mistakes I don’t deserve to be loved this way Tell me that its fake 39 bodies but I’m here next to you … Continue reading 39 Bodies
Am I insane? I feel like I’ve been stood at the edge of this cliff for so many years and yesterday I jumped, fell completely free into the deepest blue. I’d escape to the cliff top over and over when the fire of the lighthouse called, I’d feel the wind whip around my body, stealing … Continue reading The Deepest Blue
Behind my Moschino shaded eyes, I’m terrified today. I’m alone in the garden, it’s spring and my birth month though spring hasn’t always been a friend. I’ve known spring as a liar and with each new bloom spring has whispered promises it would always break. As I smoked one of his cigarettes out of my … Continue reading Moschino Shaded Eyes
I wrote about him and then deleted it all. Everything I had written just felt so irrelevant when I read it all back and I know my book and blog are full of the irrelevant, but I’ve never wanted to delete something as much as I did today. Delete the words, delete the guy. My … Continue reading I wrote about him
You could have my whole life if you wanted You could have my whole soul if I’m honest Tore my heart to pieces with your promise Always carrying your lies in my pocket But you and me we just never make it work Me and you drag each other through the dirt In the end … Continue reading If You Wanted…
The whites of my teeth show happiness I think. Everyone's too vacent to notice the big sink hole. Sinking down a deep hole maybe it's my life goal. Happiness is my biggest mystery And I wonder, was it really ever meant for me? See, I never understood how anybody could be so delirious, mysterious is … Continue reading Did you notice?